Let's try this again.

I know I have been very naughty again. I said I was back to blog again and then I didn't. So I'm going to try again.
Well Kathryn my sister moved out into a little place of her own and gee things have been quiet around here. But she still rings me almost everyday. So sometimes it's like she never left.
Other than that I have only been working. I am looking after only a couple of people but they are big hours, so I am busy.
Hubby is well amd I have even managed to stay healthy. I even stayed out of hospitial after christmas this year.
Well I will try to put more on here now, but until then goodbye and take care. I'm now going to spend time catching up on other people's blog's.

From Leonie

I'm back and ready to blog again

Hi all. I'm so bad, I have not even looked at my blog or any one else's blog all year. But I'm back to tell you all about all the things in life that bother me.
So much has happened since I was here last, but I won't bore you with everything. I'll just tell you the big things.
My sister moved in with us. She was not going so well being by herself, so we thought we would do the right thing and let her come here. BAD MOVE. After being here a few months she went to disability services and told them that I was making her do all the house work and not letting her have her money. This was not the case, what she should have told them is she didn't like it that I got her to do the dishes 4 out of 7 nights and she had to keep her room clean and I sometimes got her to vacume. When she comfirmed this with them they were a little concerned about what else she had lied about. Well there was the money problem. I explained all her money went into HER bank account that she had the ATM card for that I DID NOT know the number for, she went to the bank and only gave me rent money. I did tell her she had to pay bills that she owed before she moved in with us. But that was it. She than showed how good she was with money and told me she had spent her last $100 on a new moblie phone. Her reason for this was she didn't have a user manul for her other one. The other phone worked just fine.
So that with a whole lot of other issue's we said it was time for her to move out.
Just when we were looking for some where for her our Mother died. I didn't care about the woman at all but Kathryn did, so that has made us wait a little while. That is until last week. I have decided she needs to stand on her own 2 feet now. So we are looking for a small flat for her.
Any way that's enough bitching for today. I will go and write some more tomorrow. I hope you have been well.

I think I'm on the mend now.

Well things just went from bad to worse. After I told you all about my foot a few days ago, that day as the afternoon went on my foot started to swell more. So off to the hospital I went. After waiting the normal 3 hours the doctor tells me he thinks it is gout, again another guys point of view. But at least this time he did blood tests. They came back after another hour and a half saying Gout and infection and god knows what else, he was asking me lots of questions about my sugar levels. He then said to me he is admitting me overnight to have a drip put into my arm and medication put through that. Ok so I'm now in the ward and every 2 hours they were giving me tablets for the gout and during the night putting other stuff into the drip. So you can guess how much sleep I got. Now while trying to sleep I had on the nightie hubby had brought me in, the worst one I have with a big cow on the front of it. Not the nice satin one or the nice satin pj's. But the one with a cow on the front. Well the next day the doctor comes in after more blood tests have been done and tell me I am staying another night on the drip. Oh goodie I danced with joy about the good nights sleep I was NOT going to get that night. So as the night set in my hand where the drip was is getting sore so I tell the nurse, she has a look at it and tells me it's starting to come out, then gets it and pushes it back in. This just tickled as you can picture. That was 9 at night. By 3:30 in the morning I could not stand it any more, so they took it out. At 9 am the doctor was back and said I could go home as they could not get another drip in and see my own doctor in 5 days, they would send him a letter telling him what was going on. So now I have tablets to take but my hand has blown up now and is bothering me more then my foot is. But I got some sleep at last thank god, I was going nuts. Now I just hope every thing keeps getting better as I really DO NOT want to go back to hospital. It cost me to much to miss out on any more work. I told them I would be back next week. Well that's my update for now, catch you all soon when I'm back to normal.

I'm still alive, just.

I have been so bad with my blogging the last few months. But I am still here. Only just at the moment. On new years eve I noticed I had a sore foot at about 6pm. Didn't think much more about it until later that night when it started to give me more trouble with pain. This was about 10:30pm. Then at about midnight I said to Brian I really want to go home so at 12:30 we left the party and my foot just kept getting worse. By 3:30am I was on the phone to the ambulance
and they said it sounds like gout but not to go to the hospital due to the crowds of drunk idiots they have already taken there. So after only a couple hours sleep at 6:30 am I drove myself to the hospital. I was in so much pain, I have never felt anything like it. So after waiting 4 hours the doctor tells me he is not sure if it is gout or an infection, so gives me stuff for gout and tells me to go to my own doctor for tests. Why they couldn't do them then I don't know but I had had enough by then and just went home. Well as the day went on I got worse, I ended up losing feeling in one arm I wanted to just throw up and the pain was still bad. Oh I cant forget that I was light headed and was eating nothing. So off I go again but this time to the after hours clinic. It turned out a friend of ours was the Doctor working that night so he listened to what I had to say. He then looks at my foot and tells me I have an infection and the start of blood poisoning. Oh great. I have a shot in the bum and he gave me a couple of pills to keep me going till I could get to a chemist today and I was to go back today and have another shot today. So during the night I threw up and didn't sleep again. And by today the redness in my foot had gone further and now I was getting more pain up my leg. So the doctor I saw gave me a different lot of tablets to take aswell as the ones that Chris gave me and said if it's not starting to get better by this time tomorrow it may be hospital for me.
So that was my happy new year, how was all of your new year? Better than mine I hope.
I will try to let you know how I get on.

I'm back

It has been so long since I have posted anything. I don't where to start.
We have been to a number of weddings and an engagement in the last couple of months. Maybe I should start there. The engagement we went to was a good friend of ours Travis. He and Terri live in Ballarat so we spent the weekend there. We had lunch at Castlemaine, not really on the way but worth the extra travel. We had a really nice meal and the drive was nice, I haven't got any photos due to me being blonde and leaving the camera at home. But I do have a good tale. On the way we stopped at the bottle shop and me not being much of a drinker I was only going to get a couple of small 200ml bottles of cowboys. But the man at the shop pointed out it was cheaper to buy it by the cask. So I did, I thought I could just bring the rest home and drink it another time. Well at the party I had a little more to drink than planned. The next morning when I got up, while sitting around the fire with a very sore head I was asked by some other people just getting up "who was that singing last night after we went to bed? It was all we could hear over the duke box" At this point I lowered my head and said they were lucky they were in bed and didn't have to watch me dance aswell.
Well I might leave it at that for now and do another post a little later. I hope you are all well and I will try to catch up will all your blogs real soon.

What a day.

Today my emotions have been all over the place. I guess I should begin at the start.
Well I guess it started the other day when I looked at another blog I visit, Lesley had lost her baby, I was really sad.
Now we come to today, this morning I got a call from a dear friend of mine Lorraine, she had been waiting to her from her step- daughter or son - in - law about when she had her baby. She heard today, Kerin had the baby, it was still born. Well crap. After a long chat on the phone I went to work, to find my client was still very sick and my hours have been cut. Well fuck insurance company's. I guess I will just miss this person, I have looked after them for a while now, and they are so sick at the moment and the doctors cant find what is wrong.
Then I come home and Kathryn is ringing me to complain about a headache, then continues to tell me she is going out. If her head was that bad she would not be going out. Then I get a call from another friend, they gave birth to a wonderful little girl. This made me very happy.
After all this I think I better cook some tea for hubby when the dog starts to bark, I go to have a look and find a snake in the house. Oh great. So I told hubby we had a problem and went and turned tea off. I then watched it crawl under the front door, so I grabbed my phone and followed it around while I called the snake man to come and collect it. I have numbers for two of them but no one was answering. It's now somewhere in my yard, great I will be worried for the week now about letting my baby dog Sherman out side.
Well I've had a big bitch about things again. I will come on in the next few days and tell you all about my weekend. Lets just say I drank far to much and sang to many songs around the fire. Ballarat will never be the same.
Catch you all later.

The Apprentice.

Did any one see last nights show on channel 9? I don't think I've ever seen so many people fired on the one night. But they deserved it. They made sales drop by 37%. I would have fired them to. I just looked up on the web site and it looks like Marcus is getting fired soon. Good, he is as useless at tit's on a bull as far I can tell. But I have to say this week we didn't hear much about him. Maybe he is learning to shut his mouth therefore the shit has stopped flowing out.
Any way that's my rant for now. I must go and help Kathryn with her home work. Poor kid will never pass at school with me helping her. Oh well. Catch you all later.

One last thing. I would like to let Julie know I am thinking of you. Losing a baby is so had, I thought I had got over mine all those years ago, but reading your pain brought it all back to me. I guess that means we never really get over these things. I have never read a blog that made me feel like crying.

Our trip away

What a couple of days we had. We stayed at a place called End of the lie. I found it rather different staying in a done up train carriage. I took photo's but then discovered they have a web site where you can do tours of the different rooms they have. Have a look, www.endoftheline.com.au we stayed there Wednesday and Thursday nights and stayed with friends at Ballarat on Friday night. On Thursday we went to the rod shop in castlemaine, well it's near there so had lunch in Castlemaine. WOW talk about nice. Again another web site to look at www.criterionhotel.com I don't think they have updated the site for a little while, they appear to have different opening times now. We were there at about 1pm for lunch and on web site it says they don't open till 3pm. I had a chicken parma and OMG huge and nice, hubby had a pasta dish, also very nice and filling. I of course made him finish my meal, it was far to much to eat. The two meals only cost us $26.50, I found this reasonable since we had gone into another pub and they wanted $18.50 just for fish and chips and $16.50 for chicken parma. Of course I said no I'm not paying that and I'm now glad we didn't. At the Criterion the staff were also so friendly, we even had a laugh with them. They must have a new computer system in for ordering meals ect.... Well when we went to pay we got talking to the man at the bar and he said he had a play with the computer and next thing he knows they brought him out a meal and said here's the meal you ordered. He still couldn't figure out how he ordered it.
Our stay in Ballarat was nice. We went shopping and got our friends an engagement present, then went to the wild life park, then went to the lake and had coffee. By this point our friends were going to be home from work soon so we went to wash the car and went to our friends house. We had a nice BBQ tea but we didn't eat until about 9pm, we were to busy sitting around having a drink and talking. As you do. We then headed home on Saturday morning. I was pleased to pick up my baby dog Sherman. I really miss him when we go away and I know he doesn't like being left anywhere. Well that was my trip I hope you all had a good week. I have to work tonight but I will try to catch up with all your blogs tomorrow.

Tip of the day.

Tip for today is "if your fridge makes a popping sound and starts to smoke, turn it off"
As you may be able to gather I had a great day. The fridge blew up. At least it was the spare fridge. We turned it on so I could move everything from our other one and defrost it. But it was not meant to be. This will be great at Christmas when we have a dinner Christmas eve and on boxing day. You know what it's like when you have a heap of people over, there never seems to be enough room in only one fridge.
The day did end on a good note, we got to relax and enjoy a spa. What a way to end a day. Just to make things worse, I won nothing on the Melbourne cup.
Hey I forgot to say we are off on a mini holiday tomorrow. We are going to Daylesford for 2 nights and then staying at a friends in Ballarat for one night.
Next week I'll have some photo's to show you all. Until then have a good weekend.

Why me?

Well, now I just don't know what to do about the woman that calls her self a mother.
I have never had a good relationship with my mother. Over the years she has done many things to hurt myself and Kathryn. So now I'll get personal and share a few of them with you.
1- After I was born she met up with a man that she married, he hit us both often. She left but only after putting me through this for a couple of years.
2 - After getting married to dad (different man to number 1) who I love dearly and is the wonderful man who raised me and still looks after me, she left him and we ended up living in a flat, this is not bad, but she made friends with a man named Jack. This was the bad part. Almost daily for 6 months he sexually assaulted me. I was 10 years old at the time. I know she didn't ask him to do it but I told her on a number of times what he was doing, response:" he wouldn't do that". So that's why it kept going as long as it did. It took the lady at the school crossing (who I told) to go to the school and report it, then they called the police.
3 - The man she married when I was a baby(number 1) she took him back. Straight out of prison for the murder of his girlfriend. But by now she has had Kathryn, so not only one child at risk but 2. She also made us go to the jail every couple of weeks to visit him. What fun. Thank god nothing happened.
4 - Would take us around to many places begging for food vouchers and things like that. When I was younger I thought this was normal. I now know it's not, but when your a kid and that's how you were raised your idea's on how the world works can be really screwed.
5 - Always held Kathryn back, told her due to her disability's she could just go on a disability pension and not have to ever work and that when she was older she would just move in with me and I would look after her. She told Kathryn she would never live on her own. Well now kathryn is away from her she is on her own and doing ok. I still have to keep an eye on her but she is on her own.
6- When mum moved out of the house she was in with Kathryn, we found over $2000.00 worth of phone bills she had put on in Kathryn's name. So only today did I get the last one sorted out. 2 years down the track.

The reason I'm telling you all this is so you don't think I'm a total bitch for not wanting any thing to do with her.
Well after the thing with Kathryn and the phone bills I went to see her and told her I no longer want ANY THING to do with her, no Christmas cards, no birthday cards, no phone calls and no letters. I'd had enough.
Well, come Christmas, a card arrives with a gift voucher in it. I gave the voucher to kathryn and said enjoy it and wrote to the bitch and told her I gave it to kathryn and I threw the card in the bin. Do not send any more I DO NOT WANT THEM.
Birthday, another card, this one I sent back to her. She wrote to me saying sorry for all the things she had done to me. But I have letters from her from years ago saying the same thing. I've heard it all before.
So next Christmas another card, it to went back.
I had also seen her in town and so I went back into the shop and waited for her to go past as I did not want to speak to her, after all she did always say if you have nothing nice to say then say nothing at all.
In the mail today I got yet another letter from the bitch. Tell me to grow up. To stop playing games. That I should stop abusing her. Yet also told me I should also stop going into shops when I see her and have something nice to say. I don't get it, am I abusing her or avoiding her? I don't think she knows what she wants to say. She also told me in the letter that it was about time she stood up to me and demanded respect from me. HA, respect I thought that was something people earned. Then like all loving mothers she she told me she loves me. She has a funny way of showing it.
Well I thought I made my self clear to her. I just don't know how to get her to understand I want nothing to do with her any longer. I was planning to ignore this letter. I hope that works, but it never has before.
Maybe some one out there can offer another way to deal with my little problem.
I think I have said enough for now, I hope you have all had a better day than me.

I'm so boring

I haven't been on here very much lately. There is a reason for this. I'M BORING. I have been going to work, coming home and doing house work. What an interesting life. But things should change soon. In the next 7 weeks we 3 weddings and an engagement party to go to. None of them with in this area. So when they are all over I will still be boring but also very poor.
The first thing we are going to is the engagement, it's at Avoka. That's just near Ballarat in Victoria. That is for our dear friends Travis and Terri. We are staying at the place where the party is, they have hired the whole place and offered us a room. I will get to give Kathryn heaps as she is coming with us and is sharing a room with us.
The next thing we are going to is a wedding the next week at Shepparton. This is the wedding of a son of another friend. We recently went to his brothers 21st. It will be good to catch up with a few friends. His younger sister Chloe has come to stay with us before and she wants to come again, she is one of 7 kids and I think enjoys the peace a quiet when she is here.
Then the week after that we have my cousin's wedding in Melbourne, they are getting married in the city and then the reception is in the suburbs.
Then a week and a half later we have the wedding of the best man in our wedding Ken. That is only about an hour away from here and we will be coming home after that one as it's on a Thursday night.
Before all this happens we are going away for two nights. ALONE. I'm so excited. We are staying at Blampied, just 10 minutes away from Daylesford.
Well that's my life at the moment, I hope you are all well and I will catch you all later.

What an interesting meeting.

Last night I went to an Apex meeting. I only went because of what that demented little dwarf said about Kathryn. I really wanted that dealt with. But it didn't happen. But everyone got a chance vent there feelings, I was a little disappointed that not many people took that chance. They have been bitching about many things going on in the club, but when it comes to facing the problems. They all clam up. Well maybe not all of them but most of them did.
I really don't understand people at times, if I have a problem with a person then I normally go to that person and speak to them. I know I didn't with the person who said things about kathryn, but I was so angry I think I would have broken a leg or two, so I went to the person in charge of the local area. But normally I would go to the person/people involved and discuss it. Why do people have such a problem with this? In the past I have gone to some of the people in the Apex club when I have had a problem with them to talk and try to fix it. But one of them just said "I don't think you said that, there's no problem." But then turned around and said to others she had a problem with me. What is it with that? Another time I tried to speak to our little friend Brian Taffs about some problems that are going on, he just sat there and would not say a word until he realized I was not going away, then just said someone is saying stuff about me. I then asked what made him think it was me? He went all quiet again (must be the only time he has ever done that) and wouldn't talk about it. But then goes to my father in law among other people and bitches about me. I think if a person is given the chance to talk to the people they have a problem with and don't take that chance, they should shut the hell up and not bitch about that person again. Especially to that persons family and friends. Do they really think nothing will be said to me? I am starting to think that there a to few people with balls in this country, if people would only sit down and talk to others and try to work out problems the world would be a much better place. We don't have to be nasty about it, just be an adult and work out your problems.
It's sad when a service club in a small town is going to hell because of a few idiots. The town really needs Apex, and the members should be getting out of it as much as the town is. But that won't happen at the moment. Also if things keep going the way they are, the club will soon be no more. It can't survive the stupid behavior.
I have ranted long enough this morning, I will try to put a more positive post on here later. I hope you are all well and have a nice day.

The size of my family.

Just thought I would tell you all a little about the size of my family. Over time I will talk about them all at some point and you will all be wondering how many of us there are.
Well my dad is one of six kids all of whom are married. They all have kids, so I am the oldest of 18 grand kids for Nan & pop. Then dad has remarried and she has 5 kids, all are married with kids. Then my mothers side of the family who I really don't see a lot. Mum has 2 sisters and a brother, they also all have kids. I think there are only 9 of us grand kids on that side.
Well then there is Brians family. His mum only has one brother and he has a couple of kids, but Brian's dad is one of I think 10 kids. Most are married and the one's that are have kids, some even have grad kids. I've lost count of how many and who they belong to. Also we don't see a lot of them. So it's just dad's family we make suffer.
That's enough crap from me for now. Catch you all later.

Brian and his buddy Adam

This is my cousin's boyfriend Adam, last time I went to melbourne without Brian, Adam was sooo upset. This time if Hubby didn't come with me I would not have gone, I could not stand Adam almost crying again.

The wild party last night.

Yes we had another wild night, but this time didn't include our spa or getting in the nude. We went to my twin aunt's 50th birthday party. Because of the weather it took us an extra 45 minutes to get there. As if a 2 hour drive wasn't bad enough. And to make things worse hubby and I are both sick with sore throats headaches and a cough. But I wasn't going to have a grizzle today. We did enjoy the night, one of my dad's cousins had a few drinks and well now a few of us have nicknamed her the screamer. She was on the dance floor alone and decided she wanted company. So she screamed at all of us to come on and dance. No one did, so she gave up after a while thank god, well then for the rest of the night every time she got on the floor she screamed. Nothing special just screamed. I painted a nice picture for a few people, if she screams like that without a man near her think about how she goes off with one. This was not a picture the young boys in there 20's wanted considering carol was in her I think late 50's maybe older. I think it made them think of someone there parents age doing it. This is not something any of us want to think about is it.
Any way, another favor I did for Sarah's (my little cousin who is 20 something) boyfriend Adam was tell him all about our wild night in the spa here at home. I don't think he was to impressed after all I don't have a model's figure. I'm a little overweight and not what I would call a young man's dream girl. So I don't think he will ever look at me the same way again. I then spent most of the night playing with his man boobs, I don't think he was to impressed with this either. But a good night was had by all.
We were happy to catch up with my Nan to, but I didn't get to close due to my cold and she is an older lady and I didn't want her to get it.
you will find a picture of hubby and Adam, you can all see his man boobs for yourself. He also suggested last night that I and on to the name of my blog sick bitch. I think this had something to do with me tormenting him. What do you all think, should I add it on some where?
Hope you are all keeping well, take care until next time.